Baby Graham Howard Martin
6lbs 7oz 20 inches long.
Here I am doing the midwife, natural, home birth thing. Had 3 kids in a hospital with epidural so this 4th (and last one) I was going to go big or go home! Seriously an awesome experience. I went into it as if I had never had babies before because I never felt what a real contraction felt like and or knew what my body would do on it's own. I expected intense pain and did my research but nothing will compare to experiencing it.
I went into the birthing sweet(suite) Monday morning around 3 am with what I thought was "real" contraction. They hurt a little probably pain scale of 4(which I had not gotten to before) they were 5 mins apart as well so I thought ok things are getting started. Well nothing really happened...I was dilated to a 4 and they never really progressed from there so we all slept from 5am to 7am then those contractions went up a notch to a pain level of 6.
I started to dilate and progress on my own by noon that's when those contractions went from "that wasn't so bad can still walk through it" to "everyone shut up, let me breath, massage my back" every 30 seconds.
That was noonish...now it's 2ish and this is the part where I start to second guess what my body is telling me. I'm used to nurses and dr.'s telling me "wake up baby is crowning let's start to push"....now I have to listen to my body and do it myself. At this point I kept asking should I push what do I do as I'm trying to make it through these really hard contractions. My midwife and her assistant are funny because their response was pretty much on point and they kept saying "I don't know does it feel like you need to..." they were very tricky but I knew exactly what they were trying to do.
I had not had my water break yet so that's another thing that I was confused by because I kept thinking my water has to break before the baby comes RIGHT? My midwife and doula kept saying no forget that your water does not have to break. So once I wrapped my brain around that I got to the point where I said screw this I'm pushing what's the harm, but these contractions are hurting and I feel like pushing will help either get through the pain or get this freaking baby out of me. Well I guess my instincts were right because he was crowning.
The only way I can describe what I felt at this point was (sorry for the graphic detail) feeling like I was taking the biggest most intense dump of my life. I didn't even feel like I was giving birth to a baby but rather going poo instead. He came in 4 pushes...probably the most intense painful minute of my life. The relief when he came out was amazing and overwhelming. I was always told giving birth naturally is an inner body experience rather then an outer body and that's so true.
It was so amazing to have Rob be so involved. I went into it wanting him to deliver, but in that moment I would not let go of him with my death grip while doing (what he says) my battle cry(scream). Although when the baby came out he caught him and handed him to me. He was so in loved it and to be so close to that moment.
While baby was crowning everyone kept saying "he's a redhead" which if you know me I have been waiting for my red head baby to come so that was another motivation to get home out fast so I can see my sweet lil redhead.
Then there's the calm after the storm with the amazing relief of no pain and a new human being that's mine in my arms....it's the best.
My midwife Cyndi is amazing. I love how medically legit she is...I really felt secure with her as if I was in the hospital. She gave me and the baby the same medical attention the hospital would of gave me with out all the horrible stuff I don't like...like IV's, baby heart monitor restricting me from leaving the bed. The freedom and comfort of being in a quiet place, taking a shower, moving around anyway to make the process better.
I can't even imagine how uncomfortable I would of been in the hospital doing this naturally. It was so amazing to have my husband there, my sister and one of my best friends April(midwifes assistant) to help me through the journey.
These two woman are amazing...although April probably picked the worst shirt to wear because I will never look at Shredder from ninja turtles the same way...she was in my vision while holding my knees during my hardest contractions and all I could focus on was Shredder while I felt like my insides were being shredded. I still love her and so happy she could be apart of this amazing day.
Rob cuddling up with sweet baby Graham in the murder scene!